This is how I do, when I think about you

I'm watching the Teen Choice Awards;
this shit is gay.
But I get to see Chace, Chad, and like 39489384 other hot guys :)
The Phillies aren't on tonight, for like, the twentieth Monday in a row.
I get so bored when they're not on.
And I hate Mariah Carey, she can fall off a cliff.

Um, I went to Danny's therapy session today, because Danny didn't come to the house. I told my mom it helped, but it really didn't. I would've liked to talk about my problems, not the problems I have with Danny's problems...Lord knows I probably need therapy for what goes on inside my head. But enough about that, because it makes me sad/angry to even think about it.

I feel a weakness coming on, never felt so good to be so wrong.
Yeah, Boys Like Girls.
:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOHN CORNELIUS O'CALLAGHAN THE FIFTH;
boy is twenty today. Crazy stuff, really.
I wish I were older, all the guys I love are, like, twenty.
Whatever.

xoxo,
megan.

Come on and we'll sing, like we were free

I had to go to church today;
me and Rebecca sat in the nursery and had to read about the Four Agreements.
It was pretty interesting stuff.
Then, my mom had a meeting after church, so Mark and I went to Best Buy to pass the time.
I bought "Everything In Transit" by Jack's Mannequin and "The Sounds Of Love - EP" by the Morning Light. They're both AMAZING c.d.'s, so go pick them up.
I'm sitting here, bored out of my mind, listening to Taylor Swift and watching the Phillies game.
They're down 2-1.
Chase hit number 28, I believe?
Ryan Ludwick can suck my dick though.
I'm sorry. I kid, I kid.

You're tied together with a smile, but you're coming undoneeee....
Sorry, I feel like typing out lyrics, for some reason.

So, I just had, like, inspiration for a fanfic:
Girl is Alex's cousin.
She can sing & play guitar.
She's moving in with the Gaskarth's, because her parents just passed away in a car accident.
Either falls for Jack or Zack;
but she starts going out with Zack's brother?
I don't know, it's gay.
I'll improve on it.
But the character will write Taylor Swift's songs!
Like, for Tied Together With A Smile, it'll be about her because she shows everyone this fake smile, acting like everything is okay, putting up a front. I know that feeling, but whatever. And she's "tied together with a smile, but she's coming undone."
I think she'll go for Jack, he just...seems to fit better.
I don't know.
Sucky idea, I just wanted to get it down....

xoxo,
megan.

The flavor of your lips is enough to keep me pressin'

So, last night was the Poppin' Champagne video premiere...
one word: AMAZING.
Matt looked so uncomfortable throughout the video though haha.
He better put up some buzznet videos, or I will be disappointed in him. And then the crew won't get any gifts in November. So don't ruin it for everyone, Matt!

Um, last night, Cole pitched pretty bad. It's disappointing to see him like that. It's not his normal self, at all.
Hopefully Blanton pitches well tonight!

Today I was reading Flowers for Algernon and my ipod was playing. It was the part in the book where he discovers that he didn't really have friends, they all thought he was just a big joke...and Lullabies came on. I felt like BAWLING. Those two things - the treatment of retarded people and suicide...well, let's just say, they hit home. I fucking can NOT STAND when someone makes fun of someone else because their brain can't function on the level that theirs does. It makes me so sad, and it also makes me want to punch the tormenter in the face. I almost have before, trust me. They can't defend themselves and they don't understand either. I feel really bad for people that understand that they are being made fun of, but really can't do anything about it. Such as people with Asberger's, for example. I feel bad and hypocrictical, because sometimes I will say "He's such a freak..." but then I immediately reciprocate that statement, because I realize that they can't control it. My mom is a special ed teacher, so I have come into contact with many mentally retarded people over the span of my fourteen years, more than most people do throughout their whole life. I've grown so attached to them too. Seriously, Sammy, this boy in my mom's class, that had down syndrome - I LOVED him. And he loved me too :) I was the only person that he let hold his hand and hug him. I haven't seen that boy in years, and I still think about him and how cute he was. But anyways, WHY oh WHY must we discriminate against people that have no control over their intelligence. There's a difference between people who are just plain stupid and people who are mentally retarded - it's a monumental difference. Stupid people, they choose not to learn. Mentally retarded people CAN'T learn. Their brain doesn't retain the information that ours does.

Alright, I'm done with my mini rant.
Hope my boys win tonight <3

xoxo,
megan.

I need the product of your fears

I keep listening to the Cute Is What We Aim For c.d., it's really freaking addictive.
I don't know, his lyrics are very...catchy.

So, Poppin' video premiere is tonight!
I'm so freaking excited.
I'm going to mute Miley's performance though.
Flyzik better not let me or Lauren down, and get a bajillion buzznet videos backstage!
MTV not be gay and be like "Oh, only we can get footage."
I'll bitchslap someone.
For real.

So anyways, I need to not think about all of the exciting stuff that's going on.
Here's my calendar for exciting events:
8/16 - OCMD with Bethanne Burns. Hollllllaa!
10/9 - Fifteenth birthday AND Cobra/FTSK concert. FUCK YES.
10/11 - Hey, hockey season. I missed youu <3
11/29 - All Time Low, the Maine, Mayday Parade, and Every Avenue. SO EXCITED.

Going to find something to do, maybe watch Nancy Drew, Dan In Real Life, and/or Disturbia on demand ahha.

xoxo,
megan marie <3

I'm always drawn to each horizion

Last night, my mom ordered my tickets for the Sassyback Tour. Cobra Starship with Forever the Sickest Kids, Hit the Lights, and Sing It Loud. IT'S ON MY BIRTHDAY <3 Which means, it's a Thursday night. The tickets are will call, and the will call window and the Troc's will call window opens at the same time as the show, which kind of sucks. But I don't care, BECAUSE I'LL BE SEEING MY BOYS AGAIN <3
Speaking of boys, All Time Low is premiering Poppin' Champagne tomorrow, at 8 PM on fnMTV. Miley Cyrus is performing, which is gay, but at least I'll see Jack, Rian, Zack, and Alex :)
So, I need to get my mind off of October 9th, October 11th, and November 29th.
Just stop thinking about them.

xoxo,
megan.

So, it's official

that FTSK and Cobra are going to be in Philly on my birthday;
I'm so there.
For real.

And on November 29th, me and Charlene are seeing our boys at the Electric Factory.
All Time Low, The Maine, Every Avenue, and Mayday Parade.
Last stop of the tour.
This is going to be sickk.

I love going to shows.
On my birthday, I'm wearing a "Kiss Me, It's My Birthday" shirt;
and bringing my school i.d. to prove that it is indeed my birthday.
I want a birthday hug from Kyle and Caleb, for sure.
Austin would be sweet too :)

So here

is a list of bands I've seen live:
All Time Low (3)
Forever the Sickest Kids (2)
Death Cab For Cutie
BILLIE JOE ARMSTRONG <3
Elvis Costello
Fiona Apple
The Rocket Summer
The Matches
Sonny Moore
The Great American Soundtrack
The Goodnight Anthem
Jealousy Curve
Family Force 5
Charlotte Sometimes
Kenny Chesney
Sara Evans (2)
Montgomery Gentry (2)
Pat Green
Brooks & Dunn
Lonestar

and that's all I can remember.
I'm going to see ATL for the fourth time on November 29.
Along with the Maine, Mayday Parade, and Every Avenue.
Plus, FTSK for the third time on my birthday;
along with COBRA STARSHIP.
hey hey Gabriel Eduardo Saporta, Caleb Michael Turman, Kyle William Burns, Jonathan Samuel Cook, Austin Bello, Marc Stewart, Kent Garrison, Alex Suarez, NATE NOVARRO, and Ryland Blackinton.
Plus the beautiful Victoria Asher.
yay :)

xoxo,
megan.